okay, maybe this isn't a good idea, but maybe it is. Don't know yet. Today is a very hard day. I am not even sure why. I mean, I who WHY, but I don't know why TODAY. I have a wonderful, caring, loving, stubborn, set of boys. The younger has always been equal to anything the older can dish out. They love each other....now. Beau-the-younger is leaving next week for Al-Asad, Iraq. I've been told that it is the best place for him to be, if he has to be there. A hospital that hasn't been shelled "in three years". I've know for a long time he is going there, but for some reason, today it hit me. B e a u i s g o i n g. I know there are many other people over there, and I pray for them all, but this is BEAU. Mine. My baby. I know God holds him, I KNOW that. But today it doesn't do any good today. I think I've cryed out all the tears, but there still seem to be more. There is a wonderful Facebook group in the "circle of moms" application that is made up of mothers of military offspring. They understand. Some of them have had their children do multiple deployments. They are strong. I will be, but not today.

why?

why? I think that I haven't a clue why I am doing this, other than I need a blog address for a reading challenge. I do think maybe it can help me clarify thought to myself, and make me think about what I am thinking. A diary with no key? That everyone can read? Why? or why not?
I'll see how this goes.