whine

This is a bad week. I have been so self-involved because things are happening that hurt me. So, sometimes, it IS about me. My family, the one that I love, that is supposed to be loving me, has cast me out. Because my husband is choosing to divorce me. My motherinlaw, who says I am not an "inlaw" but just her daughter has not talked to me for almost a year. She lived close. She goes to the same church. My sisters, who I consider sisters, not IL, don't talk to me. They are in town, and don't contact me. I am devistated. This has been ongoing, but the reality of them coming into town, and not calling me is worse than I thought it would be. I feel rejected not just by HWINM, but by a whole family I thougt of as mine. 31 years, just thrown out like I am garbage. I HURT and I am MAD. My "family" are mostly Christians who speak of God and love but who are showing me not even the love they would show a stranger. I HURT! I PRAY! I CRY. One thing I don't do is ask God to hurt them, or "show" them, or in any way pray about them in a negative way. I still pray for their healing, I still pray for their hurts and wounds to be healed. I pray for their wellbeing. I love them, still. I told a friend I wished I had done something horrible so that their attitude would make some kind of sense to me. I am moving on, I am getting stronger, I am letting it, and them go, but it is hard.
Scrivner Family: Go in love, go in peace, God bless you all, richly. Amen
It is done.